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Sorry so long din update my blog d! >.< whenever i wanted to blog, halfway thru will have things disturbing me.. then when im done wit it i went bac in front of my lappy and i stare at the screen............................... I FORGOT WAT I WANTED TO BLOG!!!! >.<''''

Anyway, before i forgot wat i wanna blog... lol stuffs that got stacked up all this while.. how m i gonna post them up one by one? should i just cram them all in one post? :P hehehehe.. u'll find out later~ :P

So recently... just recently... I GOT MY UPU RESULT!!!!! hahahahahaha~!!!
LOL.. so this result is far more important then matrics result~ using maths equation: muet result

One of the happiest moment: I get to study medicine in UM! :D

And i just witnessed the whole KMS shifted to UM... most of my frens got to enter UM.. more than 10% of the chinese from my college got medicine~! plus other courses.... hahahahahhaha... dominating~ meaning im gonna meet all of them for at least another 3-4 years.. medicine ppl will have 5 years wit me :P

Somehow most of my CF frens got to UM.. and got the courses that they asked for... People are saying, "KMS ppl are real lucky.. they got all their 1st 2nd 3rd choice.. other colleges got their last, 2nd last, 3rd last choice.."
Yeah.. its somehow true and weird.. deep inside my heart, im just grateful and really thank God that I got wat i want.. the fact that i din apply for KMS in the 1st place and i got KMS is already simply astounding... 1st choice KMM, 2nd KMPP, 3rd KMNS... since then im always sure of one thing:


If it is God's will and plan, i'll definitely get it...

*Turning back time to my PSPM 1*

I was doing well in PSPM 1.. for matrics students, we all know how important this exam is tho its like only 5 months since we enter college.. the results from PSPM1 will be added to PSPM2 and then divided by 2 to determine our final result in matriculation.. so if we failed to get 4.0 in PSPM1 so we can say byebye to the real 4.0 result.. so most of the chinese got 4.0...and im one of them :) Thank God!


*PSPM 2*


Assuming everythin will be fine if i just stay like this, i continued my remaining 5 months of matrics... but things didn't reli turn out right... i was having pre-PSPM2.. ohya, the previous pre-PSPM1 i got 3As and 1A-.. So i was thinking pre-PSPM2 should be okay.. and FYI pre-PSPM2 carried 10% of my PSPM2... means if u score well in pre-PSPM2 the marks can help u to get an A easier in PSPM2... 

But...... okay... im gonna tell u a secret now... well a soon-to-be-exposed secret it is...

I got D+ for my chemistry in pre-PSPM2...

Yes... i've not been tellin anyone about this.. no one knew.. not even my parents.. not even my classmates... not even my best frens~ :P 

When i saw my result i was like, "WHAT?!?!?!?!?" in my heart... i've never got a D+ for anything in my whole school life!!! And pre-PSPM2 result is supposed to help me score in PSPM2!!

I was like *OHNO OHNO OHNO*!!!! i need to work harder! I need to study harder!!! i need more exercises!!

Back to my room i was all down and moody...

I dun even know how to tel my roommates when they asked... when my frens asked... even worse, my chemistry lecturer asked me!!!

So all the while i was like, "Yeah.. okay la.. its just pre-PSPM" but my heart was like hollow~~~

However it wasn't dat bad.. maybe the way i wrote it made it looked worse..

Anyway it wasn't long before i turned to my shepherd... my God...

I din asked why.. i din asked for anything...

The only thing i remember myself saying was, "If God wants me to get 4.0 in PSPM2, i will definitely get it.. that's certain!"

So i just commit my future into God's hand, knowing dat He has a great plan for me already.. and a great testimony too :) dats all i did... i din study harder, i din do more exercises... i just study exactly like how i studied in PSPM1..

And indeed... i got 4.0 for PSPM2... so all the glory be to God!

See how God has a great plan for me? even when things turn out wrong, to God its nothing... His plan is still going out perfectly..

To my fellow friends hu din get 4.0 or the course or uni they wanted, dun be sad.. dun be worried.. dun be down... cos u can count on my shepherd, my God! Just as He has a great plan for me, He has one for u too! And i want to introduce u to one of His names in Hebrews...remember this well.. cos u can just call upon His name whenever u want.. He'll be there :)

His name is El Shaddai! Meaning God Almighty! And nothing is too hard for Him!

Im gonna end wit this Bible verse from Ecclesiastes...

"And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it..." Ecclesiastes 3:14

❤, how true it is?

Talking bout love, the very first thing most of us will ask is "真的吗?" (translate: Really?)
A kinda question that makes u speechless to answer and at the same time a good question... However most of us will end up answering "Dunno, ask him/her la!"

Love is supposed to be pure... 100%.. erm... like a fresh juice! ;-) No preservative, no extra sugar, no extra this no extra that..

Really? How true can this be? When there are like so many types of love in this world? Parents, friends, couples, siblings, strangers... we even have puppy love! :P Is there truly a love that is pure?

The answer is.... yes, there is.. despite the increasing rate of ppl cursing each other.. break ups.. quarrels.. vengeance... hatred... there is still one love that remains unchanged.. wait wait.. why is all these bad stuffs happening when there is pure love? the answer, simple.. because pure love has yet to be experienced and discovered...fully!

but how?

1. Let me tell u a story.. daddy says he will give u a new laptop if u score straight A+... BUT if u miss one A+ and get an A instead, ur laptop becomes an external hard disk... :P
Another one, u have all kinds of friends in ur class... the good looking ones, u make them ur best buddies.. the not as good ones, u isolated them...
This is conditional love.. pure love is UNCONDITIONAL!!! U dun love someone bcos of what they have or what they do.. get it? :)

2. I love you.. I love you so much im scared to offend you because we share different opinions.. im scared to correct you when needed.. And since when love gives birth to fear? Love requires actions! If u love and talk n talk n talk only.. its only SURFACE love... If u love someone, u will want to give the best to them... Jesus once said, "If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them"(Luke 6:32) What He is trying to point out is that love, in various kinds and degrees, are not always rightly founded... If u love someone... do the right thing!

3. 1Cor 13:13 Three things will last forever--faith, hope and love--and the greatest of these is love
Now these three things comes together... thats y God makes them last forever... Why is love the greatest? because if you truly love someone, you have faith in them.. and if you believe in your love, you have hope!

The Bible tells us...

Love is the unconditional love when God sent His Son to die for our sins (John 3:16)... Faith is the total believe, trust and confidence in God which comes through hearing the Word of God and without it, it is impossible to please God (Hebrews 11:1, Rom 10:17, Hebrews 11:6).. Hope is the attaining of eternal life through Jesus and His victory over death through His resurrection (1Pet 1:3)..

Do you understand now?

Pure love comes from God.. God Himself is love! (1John 4:8) That is why it is written "We love because He first loved us"! (1John 4:19)

Just as God has loved you, use this very love to love others...

1Cor 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails.

This is pure love!

Some Words For My Dearest

Today i just want to thank Meng Earn, Samuel, Yihang, Jing Ni and Jazz for willing to share out watever is in ur hearts... for me i was able to touch and feel each of your hearts.. Thx my bros and sis! <3

Oh how each one of us have smiled our way all the while thru our sadness and worries! How each of us put up a tough character in front of the others! Oh God, we are all so weak and brittle! Our hearts shatter with the burdens we carry and our tears are like the rain pouring on us as darkness surround us... Each problem we think over each night, we tried to smile it over the rest of the day.. Oh how pathetic we look in front of You! Yet You have proved to us that You are a faithful God.. For yesterday You took my hands n joined them with my brothers and sisters... for yesterday You opened my eyes so i saw visions of them as they are sharing... Oh how they have suffered and walked the path to find out the truth.. I believe in You oh God... I prayed and asked that we learnt at least something.. But You showed me everything... God, You have put me with them, You have put words in my mind to speak to them, You have allowed all the pain to come, You made us cross path with each other and most of all yesterday....

You were there to tie a knot, a unity and a promise..

And then i know.....

we will never be the same again..... :')

Here are the few words for my dearests,

Meng Earn,
yesterday was the 1st time i heard ur story... how sad and troubled you must have been! Keeping al that to urself since a kid... :( But dun give up! be determined and persistent.. n u will find the answers to ur questions soon... i can see God is faithful to u.. u want to know y? bcos i saw everything yesterday.. i saw u destroying things, i saw u scolding people, i saw u acting as satan in the drama.. i was taken aback... just turn and look bac at ur old self.. the time when ur rebellious and rude.. the time when u hated everyone.. the time when u think u are all alone in this world.. and then u look at urself now.. u have changed.. and.... y do u changed? ;)

today at least u have us... and the most u have is Jehovah Jireh, God our provider... I found sumtin that may be wat ur looking for... if u are looking for a way... that one day u can love everyone... tho u may hate them so much in the past... ur family... ur frens... the bad people... but 2day u seek a way to love all of them.. i have a way.. n i can only show u.. u will experience it.. n u will be changed by it..

You need the love of God..

Have u experienced this before? or have u forgotten how its like? U got to feel it when u know Christ died for u and He did everything just for you.. and it was there... when u hugged me yesterday... that is the love of God... i want u to use that love to embrace the people around u... Love keeps no records of wrongs... One day u must put down the past and start making a change... u will touched the people around u and be the encouragement they need... Meng Earn.. ur family needs u today.. ur frens need u today.. the world needs u today.. The past doesnt matter anymore... God wants u to stand by the beach and look as far as u can towards the ocean... n that is the magnitude of the impact u can bring to people today... Love is taking up the cross and walk together with those u love.. This is what God wants u to do... His love is always there for u.. because God is love.. love never fails.. and u know God never fails... :)

Who says ur testimony is a bad one? I say ur testimony is one of the best i've heard! Go share it out! n remember u can make a change!

Samuel,
I thank God u have been able to stay calm and not easily angered at all times... This is sumtin that u can set up as an example to all of us... At times when u feel down and begin to doubt, always remember how faithful God has been to u all these years.. If He is there in the beginning, He will still be there in the end... In every thing that happened to u, be it tonnes of problems, know that the bigger it is, the bigger ur stepping stone is! n if ur stepping stone is so big, u wont miss it n fall into the water! every time u face a problem n go thru it, u are growing to be stronger... so take heart and rejoice watever happens to u because u know God is at work! and here we are.. always there to support u... thats the promise we made.. ur future is at work.. one day when God shows u wat it is, u must know that it is timed... God has made u strong enough to face it... God will never put sumtin that u cant handle in front of u.. so the bigger the stone, u know how much u have grown ;)

Yihang,

like samuel, u got angry with God.. u searched for answers to ur puzzling questions and doubts... So God put u here among us today.. From here onward, u will learn more n more about Him n answers to each of ur questions... U have to do this urself... u are at the right place already.. u just have to dig out all the treasures u are looking for... Continue clinging on to ur faith... u believe in the God of all gods and the King of all kings... dun let anything change that! Work out a strong foundation so u can build a sky scraper... then ppl will see and give glory to God! There is no questions that God cannot answer u... Ask n u shall receive... Wait upon the Lord and you will mount up and soar wit wings like eagles! i can see ur faith and ur hunger for more... YOU ARE WORTHY!

Jing Ni,
today God would like to offer u His shoulder, to help carry some of ur burdens... u have had a harsh time living in ur love life itself... today God wants to make a change to ur life... He wants u to be always happy.. He wants to give u a happy life... n we are going to help u achieve all that... so dont be afraid to share wit us... u have God and u have us... ultimately, He is ur comfort and ur shelter :) We are going to pray together and know that all the problems are nothing to God :) Prepare urself by praying and reading His words for u are going to have a glorious life ahead! He has better plans for u.. let Him lead u no matter what the circumstances is.. Then u can see how awesome it is to follow His plans... sometimes we dun understand in the beginning.. but i assure u in the end thats the glorious life i tell u about :)

Jazz,
Although u told me all these before but i stil cant 打汗... again all of us looked fine when we see each other.. but to know that we are all keeping things to ourselves, it broke my heart... I cant bear to see all of u like this.. i want to help.. my words to u.. remember when i said ur all going to be great tools for God? That is true and u know it.. From today on u will find and develop the courage and the confidence to help tell others about God.. U will be on fire and u will be so restless u just want to shout out all the great things u have gone thru.. n i will help u find all these confidence and courage.. as i said, things will change... even u urself will continue to change, ur family wil change, ur frens will change... One day ur family will see and realise all ur thoughts and efforts... u will have the opportunity to speak to them.. God says when one is saved, the whole house is saved... God has approve it.. u are the one to decide... I pray that u will have the strength to stand and witness to ur family and frens.. Dun worry... U have us... when ur down n weary.. remember me.. remember blur bug.. remember alys bug.. remember xavier.. remember meng earn.. remember jing ni... and u remember God... U will go to sleep happily and u will wake up happily.. today ur family needs u... u are doing very good d... keep going.. dun stop! remember, together the rest of us will help u... u are not doing this alone... Dun take up all the blame and all the pain.. Those are to help u grow...not to drag u down.. if u manage to take them up, then God has given u the strength to put them down and stacked them up to help u stand higher and shine brighter!

27/11/2011 - Mike, Meng Earn, Samuel, Yihang, Jazz, Jing Ni and Audrey and all others are tied to a promise...

"If you are willing, all of us will wait for you and we will walk together down this path..." thats our promise... We promise to always be there for each other be it rain or shine... Thank You Jesus!